About Me

I am 37 years old and to the outside world, my life looks good. I have a wonderful husband and two beautiful daughters. I have a loving supportive family and lots of friends.  I am intelligent, talented and attractive and many would say I am confident, happy and always smiling. 

All of this is true. I am confident and happy and genuinely smiling at times, but behind this mask there is a part of me that very few people know about. I was sexually abused by my grandfather between the ages of 5 and 12 and at the age of 14, my beloved father became riddled by the disease of alcoholism. The lasting effects from all this childhood trauma has haunted my adult life. 

Throughout my twenties I battled anxiety, depression, anorexia and work addiction. I hit a rock bottom at age 30 and I have been on a steep healing journey since - this has included 12-step fellowships, counselling, prayer and meditation, Reiki, nutrition and emotional freedom technique (just to name a few). 

Today, I still live with fear and insecurity - I am always trying to be perfect and it is exhausting. I hate my head, I hate how it thinks and works, but this is who I am and I am also grateful to be me. I can see I am a survivor who has been and continues to be extremely brave and strong.

So here I am, taking off the mask and at last sharing me, the real me. I'll be writing about the secret goings-on of my mind, what I have been through and how I have found different ways to heal. You'll also see the highs and lows of my day-to-day life and the obstacles I continue to face. I hope you will join me on my journey. 

Welcome to the secret mind of Eliza Hope.......